Getting my feet wet

It has been a while since the last time I choose to write something. And it surprise me that not much had change in 5 years. My pack still around with minor changes. Music still moves me in all directions. I still have my ups and downs but I am still here. I am in a different job. I am still neglecting friends in a big way. I discovered to I have a strong affinity to beer. For all my tech savvy I am not that into social media. I have all the accounts but don't use them that much. Today I just felt like getting back to write, rant or read myself. Too much responsibilities an little fun. I need to get back to basics. The little things that means so much to me. If I am going to be a hermit I might make the best of it.

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This weekend was a WoW free weekend, I decided to take some days off the game to start focusing in other areas of my life, yes gaming IS part of my life. So I went in druid mode taking care of some plants that I had neglected for too long. I will see if I still had the touch because a few of them are on the edge of passing to a better life. I was so into plants that I went to Caguas and brought a few from there. Is not the same to have them on pots but is better than leaving them to whitter and die. First I will rehabilitate the roses then I will go crazy with cactus. Even the plants I like have thorns lol.
The dogs where piss since I was outside and not with them, specially Aku who went back at biting once I entered their territory. Kalisto is still nursing her 6 puppies and they are beginning to eat out of her bowl. I had never seen her so motherly in all the years she had benn with me...could this be her last batch? maybe she knows I plan to get her fix. I really do not want her to go thru another birth. Although once I can find a good place I can have more of them I will get them somewhere. Ppl think it is hard work taking care of them but hey! since I do not have kids to take to school, do homework, educated(no training for the dogs) and the such I do have enough time to dedicate to them and they sure appreciated my slaving over them lol.
I do assume ppl won't need me or won't miss me. I just want to say thanks for reminding me I need to keep in touch because we are friends, because we care, or just because. I really need to put more effort on not neglecting friends when they are friends. I have two or three close friends but I have to internalized that I might have more friends than I dare to admit.

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Finally this week is over!! Although I do not any plans for the weekend to come I look forward to have some lazy time, hopefully. I just want to be there rotting in the sofa/bed for hours watching crap TV and letting my mind drift to never land. Sometimes I need a shutdown period.
My bitch Kalisto gave birth to 7 pups. Six red as her mother and one completely white. So far all of them are alive and six are healthy the last one is so tiny that I am not sure if it will survive. So every morning and afternoon I am the one making sure that little one gets some milk. Compare to the others six she is like 2 weeks behind. NO I am not falling in love with another dog, for now. Their eyes are still changing but one of the males is going to be a carbon copy of Kalisto, red/brown hair with gorgeous blue eyes. The others I am not sure until a few more days how the eyes will be. After the previous birth, that Kalisto ate all of them, I am surprise how motherly she is been with this batch. She is getting paranoid now that they are starting to walk/crawl away from her. She is in good condition and eating like a horse :S
This week I was happily put on my place for neglecting Valentine's day. I though it was not important, that you just did not care but you do...Who knew? I though I had you figure out and then you come to hit me with that backlash, ouch! nice! I will go back to my attention to details that I had let go off. I am glad you noticed that I was lacking but I am happier that you care enough to let me know. Are you a masochist? Why do you put with all my crap? Not that you are so easy to handle yourself...What do you gain from me? What do I get from you? Of all the ppl in my life are you the one to be there for me? Of all the ppl in your life am I the one to fill your needs? You know I can not be tame or cage, I know you can not be change...and knowing that we still here. Why I write this because you do not know about it. Maybe one day I will let you on this secret. But for now it will be here and maybe there for when the time is right.

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It has take me a while to decided if I want to continue wrtting adn after some time off I think I might. Still not sure where I want to take this blabbing but at least I can get some stuff out of the system.
How can I ask of you to listen when you are dealing with such a responsability. My meaninless complains are shadow by your unafair circunstances. It was fun to played ball with each other so called "issues" but how can I be of any help when my hands are tie. I feel helpless and that bothers me so much. Is frustaiting to not be able to be the bra I am supposed to be. My only consolation is that you have the mage by your side. A guy that everyday gains more and more my admiration and respect. On the other hand you had made me realize how pity I can be at times. You have teach me so much over the years and even though ppl will never understand why or how we still friends I just now we are. Saying goodbye to have you a trip away had been harder that you can imagine. Stopping myself from calling just to chat when I am bored a nightmare. Yesterday I said goodbye to my brother becasue he is joining the armed forces and it did not move me as much as saying goodbye to my friend, her hobby and their baby. A big part of me was going away and I could not stop it. Bt I knew it had to be done.
At the same time my other sister was solid on her marriage and her new life. For which I was happier than a dog with two tails. But that meant sacrifying time spend togheter and leaving her protetion to someone else. Understanding that she no longer need it protecting took a lot out of me but I was confident in her choice and he has been a great man to her.
Having too much time to myself left me no where to go but inside. Not to hide but to reconnect and redefine. I stared a long and hard journey which had taking me everywhere from hell to heaven. Which I might write later on.

Mid of Feb

Finally got my green light form the physician. After weeks of tests and buckets of blood been drain out of me we discovered that I am fine...I just have a lazy bone marrow. Due to my last “dengue” my bone marrow took a vacation and apparently it takes a while to get up to where is supposed to be. But since I work on an Medical Institution I can not afford to wait for the bone marrow to decide to come back from vacation. They gave me a type of steroid to bust my system and shock my bone marrow to work normal. I got a big scare from my head physician when he decided, without my concern, to ask for an Oncologist for a second opinion. The oncologist send me to do 18 tests! And all the kept writing under reason for exam was leukemia. The waiting is the worse part. So many thoughts go thru your head. All the what if? How would I? ...all that is in the past now and I had my 50,000 miles check up lol.
My mother is getting married to her partner of 35 years on her birthday...it was about time. Everyone is making a big fuss about it. I was hopping for a ceremony with a selected group of friends/family and a nice celebration but nooooooo leave it to my family to turn a special occasion into a “fiestas patronales”. Everyone and their pets is invited...”How can I leave anyone out?” the colors will be dragish eastern bunny, the food asopao de 3 carnes, the ceremony will be in the luxury community center of a “residencial”. And the best part I have to be there. At least I only have to pay for the wedding dress, probably the grooms and my brothers cloths, and just smile for the pictures.
On much better news, I have the dog from hell as my new puppy. What did I expected when I named him Aku? Only 3 months old and he is getting huge, I have a feeling he is a puertorrican mix lol. I had bought him 5 different toys but he still enjoys chewing me...pants, arms, legs, fingers...when I wore short sleeves ppl think I had a fight with a woman. Hopefully he will out grow that face...soon. It is funny to see the old ones requesting attention and the puppy demanding it. Now Loki is getting more territorial with me. He literally jumps into my lap and keeps everyone at bay. Poor Dimitri still the silly puppy just wait for his turn and the matron Kalisto well she just knows I will go to her.
I am leaving for North Carolina next week for training. I will be there for a week learning the structure of the new system’s table. This is the first face of the conversion, start your engines.

December is here

Sometimes we forget or ignore the blessings that are bestow on us. We tend to waste time on meaningless drama instead of appreciating the important elements that surround us. Last week it was Thanksgiving and for the first time in years my mother, my stepfather, my older brothers and me sat...actually sat! at the table to eat. Johnny gave a little prayer and we ate, we talked and we laughed. No matter how far you try to run away, in moments like this you notice all the details that forge you as a human being and you remember all the good times. For a few hours I did remember the dinners, the parties, when there was only one TV and we all jumped in bed to watched it...My family might drive me insane sometimes but I do have precious memories with them. All the important cast arrive to ate and a few new ones also appeared.
After an afternoon of beer and domino I went to my father's house. There was the whole crew, I mean my aunts and their families. I stayed there until 12:30am so I guess I was having a good time.
Friday I had the spontaneous idea of going to Old San Juan...for some reason the major decided it was a good day to decor so the streets were closed. Still feeling adventurous I decided on Saturday to go visit a new place in Barranquitas "Aviones". It is a restaurant on the mountain with two huge airplanes and a control tower. With just a road map I took off. First let me tell you there is NO easy way to get to Barranquitas...why so many curves did not they knew back then that the closest route between two points is a STRAIGHT line, damn. After almost 3 hours looking for the place I arrive. When you can hear the roar of people talking you know something is not right.
Me: How long for a table?
Guy: two and a half hour to sit
Me: What?!
Guy:Oh, and another hour and a half to eat
Me:...
By the time I was able to react I was in the car with directions to the "shortest" route. As I said there is no easy way to get in or out. at least I know where the place is.
It was a pleasant weekend I even surprise myself with been away from WoW for 3 days.
I will fulfill my quest on Barranquitas and San Juan but I think I will bring victims next time.

After 80

I took a week of from work to behave as I had not behave in years...I played, I slept and ate. Nothing more for 7 days. It was heaven to be able to act as the kid I am. Days like that are better than traveling. Been able to go into the far end of gaming and forget about the outside world. Without regrets or remorse just the satisfaction of the game. Now that I cap I will discover the new realms until more get to my level and I can do Dungeons.
Thanks to the climate going down the dogs have a great fur. they look so freaking cute...I am in a good mood...Kalisto is shedding all the light hair and her brownish red hair is coming out. Dimitri looks very handsome with all the collar hair and little Loki...well he will look good anyways. Secretly I am looking for the missing link in the pack...a black dog but shhhhhh do not tell anyone.
This is a three days work week so hopefully it will go without any mayor event. I want to see how long can I work without blowing a fuse lol.